this is only temporary

so let’s not get tired of doing what is good. at just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don’t give up.

Galatians 6:9

So much of this life as we know it is temporary. Things like our friends, jobs, and stress; it’s all fleeting, simply fading in and out of our consciousness. We know that. But somehow, that knowledge doesn’t seem to lessen our struggle. We struggle to understand why good things have to end and bad things have to happen. Welcome to life, friends.

Lately, I feel like I’m stuck in this place where not a lot of anything makes sense. I’m not sure what direction my life is going, or what my ultimate destination will be. Sure, I have ideas and goals, but who knows what will actually happen. You see, my struggle is more with why I’m stuck in this temporary place. Why the Lord has placed me in this situation where I feel stagnant and useless. Where I feel like I’m not making a difference in the slightest, when all I want in life is to make a difference.

Don’t get me wrong, it’s definitely not all a struggle. There is a lot of positive in my life right now. The Lord has blessed me with an incredible relationship with the best guy I know. I’ve got some pretty stellar friends. I’m graduating with my master’s degree in seven months. God is good. Boom boom.

I just can’t seem to wrap my head around this temporary state. I feel like I’m stuck in this awkward limbo phase of life, where I’m not really a Big Kid yet, but I’m definitely not a kid anymore either. I know I’m called to do big things with my life. We are called to proclaim the Good News and share the light and love of the Lord with the world. I know that. So then why am I here? Stuck in a tiny town with a community that is dwindling? Struggling in a seemingly meaningless job? Struggling with how to best support and care for the people around me?

Here’s the thing you guys, my life is not my own. My life is for the Lord. Yeah, I’m stressed, overwhelmed, confused and burnt out, but you know what, it’s only temporary.  When we get caught up in these struggles, I think we forget just how big our God really is. He’s so much bigger and greater than any worldly struggle. In all reality, we have no idea what our lives will look like in the next five minutes, weeks, months or years. Well, maybe the next five minutes, but you get the point. That means we have to be intentional with our time. Love authentically. Dedicate ourselves to really making a difference. We can’t waste our time stressing, because in all reality, it’s only temporary. When your situation feels meaningless, turn to the Lord. Focus on Him and His goodness. Bury yourself in the Word. Stop thinking about why your situation doesn’t matter for you, and try to understand why you matter to someone else.

So here’s the thing, you guys, do what is good every single day. Don’t waste your time or energy on things that don’t matter. Don’t give up. Do trust the Lord. He has incredible plans for us, and at just the right time, we’ll start to understand.


15 Things I Learned This Weekend

1. I can survive an 8 hour drive alone, even with crappy radio.
2. My eating disorder is my (unhealthy) coping mechanism.
3. Michigan is one of my least favorite places in the whole world.
4. Queen size beds are the best.
5. Some people will always suck, but I think they’re just meant to show you how good the important people in your life are.
6. Family is stressful.
7. I am unbelievably happy and content with my life.
8. Not starting and ending my day with my bible sincerely throws me off.
9. The people who actually care about you are infinitely better than the people who are supposed to care about you.
10. Driving down a country road with the windows down and radio blasting on a sunny day is one of life’s greatest pleasures.
11. I have so much to be proud of in my life, and the potential and drive to continue doing incredible things.
12. Long drives are great for talking to God.
13. I love those friends that you can pick right back up with, no matter how much time has passed.
14. Choosing faith and building a real relationship with the Lord is the best decision I have ever made.
15. People say you have to experience something bad in order to truly realize how good you have it, but I think it takes experiencing the best in life to realize how bad you’ve had it and how far you’ve come. I think that lesson is one of the most motivating.