I’m starting a new adventure in 7 days. 6 states away from this place I have come to call home. 15 hours away from friends that have become family.
I’m getting nervous, to say the least. I’m nervous to leave this place. Nervous to leave my friends. Nervous to leave the guy who makes my heart happy. Nervous to leave the comfort of this job I (mostly) know how to do. I’m nervous to find a new church. I’m nervous to meet new people. Nervous to start my internship. I’m nervous to live in a new place. Nervous that I won’t be good enough. Nervous that I won’t like it.
But I’m also excited. I think.
I have a sincere passion for people who are broken or struggling or just experiencing life in a different way, and here I am, presented with the opportunity to work with this population. I have the opportunity to go to a brand new place and see more of this beautiful world. I’m excited to meet new people. I’m excited to embrace my passion. I’m excited to deepen my work and find a new way to bring the Lord’s light to my world. I’m excited to continue to grow in my faith, without the familiar comforts of my current church and faith community.
I want to use this new adventure as an opportunity to develop my gifts, grow in my faith and understand where the Lord has called me.
“God has given each of you a gift from his great variety of spiritual gifts. Use them well to serve one another. Do you have the gift of speaking? Then speak as though God himself were speaking through you. Do you have the gift of helping others? Do it with all the strength and energy that God supplies”
1 Peter 4:10-11
I know I have been uniquely placed in this world. I know the Lord has a plan for me. I just need to trust in that plan and embrace the adventure. I am where God has placed me. I believe I have both the opportunity and responsibility to bring light and love to my world. So, instead of thinking about my nerves,
I’ll focus on the opportunity to grow in my faith and learn more about the Lord’s plan for me. Scratch that. I’ll focus on how I can use this opportunity to serve. To serve the Lord through serving others.
“Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.”
It’s normal to be afraid to try new things, but how can I be afraid when I know I’m going to live my life for the Lord?! I know that’s taking the verse on a fairly surface level, but it’s where I am and how it applies to my life currently. I have been transformed in body, mind and spirit through my faith journey. I am no longer focused on my worldly struggles or fears. I am comforted with the knowledge that the Lord has saved me. I am comforted knowing that there is a purpose for every obstacle and adventure I face. You see, this life isn’t about me as an individual. It’s not about whatever worldly successes I can accomplish, sites I can see or things I can experience.
My life is for the Lord.
While it’s ok to be nervous for the summer, I just need to remember that it’s another opportunity to serve. If I keep my eyes on the cross, I have nothing to fear.
“I repeat, be strong and brave! Don’t be afraid and don’t panic, for I, the Lord your God, am with you in all you do.”